Jesus’ moment

Posted on May 3, 2018 by clay

Last night we had a conference. 4 of us discussed a lot of things. We haven’t arrived at final conclusion besides going through what needs to be done and covered. It was a mixed feelings. On one hand, I’m happy that my mum in law won’t need to go for immediate and aggressive treatment. On the other hand, I’m sad because the treatment is lifelong and the medicine is expensive (more than what we can afford). On one hand, I’m afraid because this is a new medicine with not much well established. On the other hand, I’m happy too because at least there is something to try.

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Broken life, Wonderful life

Posted on May 2, 2018 by clay

He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds. ~ Psalm 147:3

It has been a very hectic, trying, and weird weeks and days in my life. I was delivered so wonderfully that until today, I still can’t stop singing and telling of God’s goodness. At the same time, I was witnessing and going through heartbreaking moments and experience.

This morning, I met with a very impressive lady. Never in my life I met such wonderful person. Words just can’t describe her. And yet, I mourned and wept because she just lost her dear brother. Again, I can’t describe the emotion that went through me. It just so deep and I wept.

I was enjoying a new change and met a lot of interesting and wonderful people. I rejoice for the whole new experience. And tonight, I heard the result about my mum in law prognosis. Her type is the rare one, and hence it was told she would require life long eating up new medicine, and that’s costly and also risky. But we can’t leave her just like that, at least my small heart don’t think that’s a good idea. Pain and suffering just isn’t good.

So I cried out to God. And He provided me with the strength, so I can face another day. Our life and our being could be broken. We are easily broken. But still, we can also be wonderful. We might be broken on the inside and outside. But by God’s grace, we could be wonderful life and story. Only in Jesus such hope could exist.

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God is Good and Faithful

Posted on May 1, 2018 by clay

The Lord is faithful in all his words and kind in all his works. ~Psalm 145:13

Indeed, the Lord has brought into completion what He has started so long ago. And His ways are so far above my thoughts and dreams. I would never write, nor plan, nor imagine of such story.

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Gentle and meek Messiah

Posted on March 26, 2018 by clay

Jesus entered Jerusalem and went into the temple courts. He looked around at everything, but since it was already late, he went out to Bethany with the Twelve. ~ Mark 11:11

I wrote the story in another page Twice saved, reflecting the Messiah journey to Jerusalem and my meditation on the narration. Yesterday, the preacher said that Mark is probably the most difficult account as he narrated without commenting. I thought that’s probably not true, because Mark actually wants us to understand from narration or story telling, the way he tells the story, the way he describes the actions and the events tells us a lot.

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Making friends

Posted on March 22, 2018 by clay

This afternoon, we had guest to come to our place. The children had good times, they played together and had such fun. My wife served a wonderful lunch for 8 people. I didn’t manage to take any picture to capture the event. I quite regretted for not taking the picture. At one point I wanted to take a picture, then I saw the glance from the girl that she didn’t want to be in the picture, or a questioning look, why? Then I didn’t take the shoot. Should have been more bold to ask their permission for a picture.

Yet on the same time, the question why a picture? Is it for my glory? That I opened my house and invited people for lunch? Or to thank my wife’s hospitality and kind heart?

One question that stuck in my mind is about making friends, how one cross the barriers and making friends. If I look back, it was the children that making the most number of friends. And I probably making the least of it.

Lord, please help us to have genuine friendship here.

 

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God had mercy on us, again

Posted on March 16, 2018 by clay

This morning, I found a horror moment, when the dishwasher couldn’t be turn on. It meant we will have to handwash everything, in this cold weather. So I wrote an email to our agent, describing our need and asked for help.

About lunch time, before we left home, I found a relief. Apparently, there was a power switch trip. And when I switch it back, the dishwasher is working again. Hooray. So i was sending text to notify my agent, to say that the problem is solved.

But before I could press ‘Send’, suddenly the switch tripped again.

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Waiting for job

Posted on March 15, 2018 by clay

I was entering a worrying mode because still haven’t found a suitable job. And I was thinking why God hasn’t answered our prayers.

This morning, I thought at least 2 reasons that God still putting me on hold.

  1. That I would be closer to Him

I’m not saying that people need to be unemployed to be closer to God, or that unemployed people are closer to God. What I am saying is that while being unemployed, I could have more time and unhurried time to talk with God and have communion with Him. I don’t have to rush to the day.

If I’m working, I would rush to work early in the morning. My quiet time with God would also be rushed. So I take it a precious time while waiting for job, to enjoy my time with God and build my relationship deeper.

2. That I would learn to have a heart of compassion

While waiting for job, I also learn somehow, I am having more compassion on people who lost their job or looking for job. I am less harsh and feel more for them. The Bible stories like Boaz kindness to Ruth did really speak to me. Jesus’ call to Matthew also speaks volume. He saw him sitting at the place that not good, and He singled him out. Then he rose up and followed him.

That passage taught me to see beyond employment. To see a person like Jesus is divine. How on earth did Jesus see beyond a man sitting at tax booth and out of it came Matthew the gospel writer?

Lord, develop a heart of compassion in me, and eyes to see people rightly.

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Wise and Faithful

Posted on March 14, 2018 by clay

“Who then is the faithful and wise servant,…? (Mat 24:45)

Often I heard these term ‘wise and faithful servant’, but often the true meaning alludes me. This morning, I thought I understood it better. Taken in the context, it makes more sense, at least on Matthew’s gospel, for in Mark, the context is slightly different.

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In the Beginning

Posted on January 30, 2018 by clay

It has been a month since we landed here in Melbourne city. And life has been a lot of discovery of new things. We were looking for a church and still looking for it. This morning, as I woke up and spending some time in quiet with the Lord….

I went through the different groups that we met. And God showed me something…

There is group that focused on the children. All of us as parents face challenges about our children. I do everyday. I pray to God everyday. I would love to improve as a father. But that’s not the group that I want to be part of.

There is also group that meet for social or support. That would be lovely too. But if life is all about that, again, that is not something that God showed me…

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A week update

Posted on January 25, 2018 by clay

Tonight, my wife just told me how fortunate we are to be able to get the house so fast. In comparison, there is a newcomer who found it very hard to secure a place. And also she recalled one of her friend found it hard to get a place.

How can we get it so easy just like that?

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