Going Home

I don’t know why,

It’s always a tremendous excitement to see home again,

I don’t know why,

I always love home; mum, bro & sis, my room, my books, and everything abt home,

It’s always full of anticipation & certain expectation,

And certain longing to see the old faces again,

I don’t know why,

Though i’ve been home many times,

As if it’s my first time going home,

Especially this Christmas time,

I think that’s what we long for,

A home; full of joy, warmth, love, and rest.

So most likely won’t touch this page again till next year.

If you’re reading this, it’s most probably my last entry this year (unless tonite i’ve time to write something).

Overall i can say i’m satisfied.

Looking forward for a New Year 

And one lesson learnt this year: “There is A God” 

Merry Christmas 2005 & Happy New Year 2006 :>

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Pleasant Things :)

I thank God that yesterday found a book rental  Was truly excited with this finding. Didn’t have much time to look through, but a glance i saw a lot of books, and few books i wanted to read, with cheap price & 2 months for rental  Waow… It’s quite near my office also hahahaha  What an exciting news. Books…yes, good n cheap 

Secondly is the gathering of feedbacks from ppl i’m working with or close to  Hmm, more or less received similar or overview things…so this holiday going to spend few days to look into it…

Hmm, Lord i’m pessimistic abt a change…

Help me to see what You want me to see,

Open my eyes Lord, i want to see

Amen.

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Needed a Break (2)

Last nite prazt arrived back safely… really glad to see him again  Going to be another exciting year to have such housemate hahahaha 

And his life is never without story….hahahaha…lost his passport?? 

Well, last nite was really a good light up in my life….started to count down. Spoke to mum to, an old  friend back home. The Christmas cards and reflections reminds me of the olden days…

Yup no longer young like last time,

finally the time has come

i need to be man

after all these years… i kinda see something that i’ve never seen before

few more days till end of this year, i pray Lord that it’s one of the beautiful closure i ever have in my life. And new Year will be a clear Year that i’m clear of the direction for my life 

I may not know everything, but i want to be clear the direction and priorities….no longer playing as little messiah & at the end messed up many things. Overall i thank God, indeed this year my life testifies that… despite the massive messiness i made here & there, the fact that things still in tact, there must be God.

Hopefully i’ll learn from those mistakes and be wise. Seeing a tendency that i might repeat the same mistakes again…like will do this & that while i’m suppose to be resting & taking a break. Oh i’m not a messiah.

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Needed a break (1)

– things are getting out of hands

– i becoming more forgetful i forgot things happened yesterday…now even things at present i forgot>

– tend to rush and unable to do slow things

– impatient

now is like need a break….

12 more days…) my only hope at moment

and almost everyday i’ve kind meeting (

who am i? what am i? i’m just a clay 

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Roller Coaster Year

I did not expect for bad things to happen

Or daily life that’s full of immorality, violence, inhumanity, and greed as it’s displayed in newspaper, magazines, or television. There’s isn’t something good appearantly. Wherever i turn my eyes or ears, or even nose…it’s a crazy world i’m living  in.

What a writer wrote in today’s column is very correct. Singapore has come back to where it began. In the old days when crime, gambling, prostitution, and transmitted disease are phenomena…after the many years of progress to clean, safe, and protected haven….Now we have the rising number of HIV-positive children & wives, Crazy Horse show, teens more open about pre-marital sex, and super Casino that’s called Integrated resort.

This world is certainly not a better world than last year or many years ago, or even last century. There’s more war, more crime, more of immorallity, and seems to me…getting worse. Apahty and intolerance, self-centeredness and hipocryzy…the list just too long.

Where this world will go? Where all these people that don’t know what they’re doing will go? One day they will wake up, and just repeat the things they’re doing  Where will the sane people go? They’re either become insane or follow the insane…no wonder…the moment u lose ur integrity, the moment u tolerate wrong, the moment u let go ur principal…u’ll reap confusion and going to destroy u

in light of all these thoughts…and things happened in my individual life , i remember a Chinese song that sweet to my ear and soothing my aching soul. Quite sad my friend hasn’t give me the translation and words. The title is “There’s A God”.

It’s a great comfort, in the midst of all the chaos.

There’s A God. A Powerful God. That created the Universe. Yet compassionate and loving, to stoop and look down on Earth. He has both the power to act, and the love to care. Despite all the chaos and disorder. Never forget, there is God. 

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Before the Race

feeling anxious and don’t think will be able to sleep tonite…hahahha…what kind of feeling is that. has long forgotten this kind of feeling…perhaps when tomorrow is an exam. But this i can’t picture the crowd and confusion that will happen.

Relax man…sg is so well guided and protected…where can u get lost?  a little comfort

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Once again i ponder upon the simplicity of children

Yah, this might not be related to the title [will see how],

Will give a short talk for children tomorrow and on sunday. Thanks to Mona who edited my script and her comments that remind me to go down at children’s level 

I don’t think it’ll be fantastic or I’ll be well equipped coz the short time I’ve for preparing. But trust it to God for whatever i have at moment.

The idea of “good punches” teased out my brain this morning. If explaining is considered as a punch, then illustration followed by application are the finishing moves or deadly combinations . So borrowing from the boxing world, i hope to deliver good blows to the children on sat and sun  Need to add some illustration and more personal touch…make it deadly combo…and at the end present them simple and relevant application….Hope will go something like this :

Jab – jab [present – present] – shock – jab – jab – uppercut – finishing move [explain – illustrate – application]

I might be still thinking as adult [only adult box, children will fight], and sometimes [like now], I wonder…perhaps a simple thing works better for children. A simple, pure [without pretense], and really simple [take and eat] works best for them.

It’s something I give thanks [to be involved with children ministry], for it keeps me childlike and simple….take tis from me and I’ll become cold, dogmatic, and too high…but children keep me low, down-to-earth, and simple

how do I love the simple thing, and like this “Jesus loves me”, what a comfort compares to thousands of adult writings?

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Take it easy – Cameron Highlands drama [end]

Somehow [how often i use this word], i manage to take it easy this round.

Just want to close the Cameron Highlands trip story…similar story of rushing and last minute thing…and the mercy of God 

It’s monday morning, i lead on group devotion on subject of ministry. Took from 2 Corinth 5, abt ministry of Reconciliation that Paul received from God… It started with Paul reminded us, ministry only by God’s mercy. How soon we forget this first clause, and thinking that it’s our work and ministry. It’s liberating truth, and more thankful, for we’re here only by His grace [Indonesian song…all bcs of His grace], not bcs we’re smart, talented, rich, skilful, or even good looking.

I’ve had many rejections in life [everybody too i believe], and only one person never reject me [everybody too i believe] is God.

After this, i shared on my UCANTA trip, the joy and struggle i had. And assured them that this time it won’t happen again, coz this time i’ve checked with the bus station, there’s bus tomorrow morning to bring me down to Kuala Lumpur.

Happily we walked to town to get our lunch. Had really [i think] best group lunch so far. And hadn’t been satisfied with the steamboat, we headed to eat ice cream…fantastic ice cream and cozy place…u’ve to see the pictures we took. Full and had a lot fun, we headed around [to digest], and waited for taxi home. Asked around for taxi tomorrow morning to bring me to bus station.

And…karen asked me if i’ve bought the bus ticket. “I haven’t” was my reply, ” the girl told me tomorrow morning come and queue”. So i made a phone call [6 pm] by now, and asked for ticket tomorrow 8 am to Kuala Lumpur. To my horror, no more tickets, both for 8 am and 9 am, left only 10.30 am…and that won’t make it to KL by 2.30 pm to catch my bus back to Singapore.

That’s it…karen wanted to “strained” me to coz the whole team in panic and “ruin” the fun day. I didn’t know what to do either. It’s my mistake, no experience and trusted the girl on the phone, i thought came down to bus station early morning and just bought ticket…and now seems ppl booked already and fully booked.

So few of us went down to the bus station, asked the taxi driver to help us just to get 1 more seat for me…to no avail. There’re quite chaos there…i can’t really remember what are the options that we thought and tried at that time.

Only remembered we called Tapah [another small town] for bus to KL or eixven Singapore. And vi suggested to take taxi to Tapah, if no bus to KL, to go back Cameron Highland and took the 10.30 bus to KL. But then KL – Sg, how am i going to catch that bus? It’s the most difficult bus to get and most important…else i can’t go back to Singapore.

Last, [with much prayer] karen called the agency and asked if i could join them in van tomorrow morning to Tapah. The good news was that the “previously troublesome” agency allowed me to join the van for free. So we rejoiced over the fact i could get from Cameron Highlands to Tapah…and left with Tapah to KL that we’ll see on the next day when we reach there….

Hahaha…everyone went crazy…but i most…[shouted to the mountain tops]…how much God loves me? But how much do i love God? God loves as steady as the mountains. So i’s saved from the calamity and even got better way of returning; same van with my friends…7 of us again.

So the next morning, i even had breakfast, saved taxi fare to bus station, the van came and picked us up…and journey to Tapah…shared God’s love to Mr Vasu. And there at Tapah…shortly after met the Caspian office, rushed to catch the bus that brought me to Kuala Lumpur. And even better, i had chance to talk with my long friend Galvin there at KL.

You see, man [me] failed and messed up things, but God made it for good. Even at the end i received far better than what i could plan. But it’s lesson for me. Don’t repeat this mistake again. Plan and prepare properly. So next time Lord, i promise them too, i won’t repeat the same mistake. Treat them with Tiramisu as my sorry causing heart-attack for them.

See, i even know how to make Tiramisu bcs this incident 😀

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Wanna to swim dude?

Whoa!!

What is the best way to ask somebody to swim? Or to force urself to swim regularly? 

I think the best answer i’ve at moment is ask them to sign for Marathon run…or u sign up for a Marathon run, or even half of Marathon…that’s 21 km….

Just undergoing training for half Marathon on Tue …did my 3X300 m at my top speed…and yah….today my whole body is aching…..:D, because i didn’t do any recovery exercise which swimming was suggested as the best. =)

So yah, do u choose the swimming or aching body on ur 2nd day? 

i think i’d rather force myself to dip into the pool!

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Story of A luggage (3) – Last Rush

So finally, 

After waiting for so long, i better finish up the story….

Last part of the luggage story… and u’re privileged to read this coz its the most untold story (haven’t told this to anybody yet as long as i remember)

It began on 16th July 2005, we finished eating at the famous Italian restaurant where the portion is so big and i could only finish half of the portion…hahahaha 

So full of food, headed to Airport, there’re plenty of times this round, and with my sis and her friends….i’s glad that at the end of my journey at least something nice (hoping … hoping … hoping)…My flight to LA is supposed to depart at 8 and arrive there at LA around 10 pm. And my connecting flight LA – Taipei is on 01.15 am. So 3 hours should be enough time for me to collect the luggage, go to international flight, and check-in.

And when we arrived in Vancouver int airport, my flight was delayed. Wat…For 1 hour, or 45 minutes to be more precise. And so the arriving time would be delayed as well by about 45 minutes.

Hehehe….the tension started to develop. We checked for China Airline from Vancouver – Taipei (we saw there’s), but it didn’t flight tonite. So we asked the lady at counter if possible to get into the earlier flight; the answer was that i didn’t have enough time to pass the immigration. My sister almost in fight with the lady, and i managed to assure her that 2 hours should be enough for me to catch my connecting flight. We also checked if my luggage can go directly to China Airline? And the answer is No. So we spent few minutes taking photos there, and there i left Vancouver.

Before i left, passed through the immigration counter, and so there’re little funny story here which i can’t tell because it’s sensitive issue.

After the so many incidents….all that just happened is part of my living i think… So thanking God for bringing me safe thus far. And waiting for the flight, met few people, especially the Hong Kong family, with 1 boy and 1 girl. The mum quite open, but the dad is very reserved.

Arrived in LA, then SMS Herry, told him that i’m flying off to Taipei and back to Sg…can’t meet him again this round. But it brought the good memory we spent together in 1 day. Yah, good memory of LA. So i proceeded to the baggage claim, it’s already a lot of people, and finally found that my flight was the last wheel.

I saw a lot of people and hoping that my luggage will soon come out. And realised that since i checked in quite early, probably my luggage will come last. So i just waited and waited…and could see and feel people started to get impatient. Then people started to complain, that they had waited for 45 minutes just to collect the luggage. The Hong Kong mum just left and so only the dad that standing to wait for the luggage. The mum told me that worst thing is i missed my connecting flight, as it happened before to her.

That’s quite good and realistic say i thought. Oh no, now what should i do? Should i just leave my luggage? So going back without my luggage? But inside i bought some gift…And i didn’t write my address complete, meaning anybody found my luggage won’t know the address should go to Singapore… That’s it man. And it’s Andrew’s luggage, how would i answer him? But missing flight back…how would i get another flight? Here is international flight, and 12+ midnite…when is the next flight and i didn’t see any counter as my previous case.

The situation got worse when the machine stopped working, so no luggage was coming in. And people was little bit in uproar. Some left, some sueing, and some filling complaint form. Well, that’s not big deal for them. They stay there, but i need to get my luggage to catch my flight back home. Hoeeyyyy…and i’m alone. So confused when everybody were talking, should i join the new formed queue? Is it queue to get the luggage manually as the machine stopped functioning? And how long will i get my luggage?

Again at dead end situation, and could only pray, that if God has brought me thus far…pls bring me home. Not again this kind of thing, even at last point here. And i saw a guy came (worker of the flight) and i saw him manually throwing in luggage. Oh no, the luggages are definitely big, and here only one man and he look slow and tired after throwing in 2 luggages. Here about 50+ people.

Suddenly the machine started to run again. At least there’s hope. And few minutes, there i saw my luggage. Hahahaha….no time to embrace and hug again, so i just picked up and quickly run for the international flight, to China Airline…..Thank You Lord. About 30 – 40 minutes i still have by now.

And then another funny thing happened, when i’s made difficult at the check-in counter. One guy ordered my lugge to be scanned, and somehow only me….so funny that everyone was looking at me and i know they’re thinking in their heart – this poor fellow, why the officer made him to go wrong process, he could just check-in the luggage and take the flight.

That’s not important to me, i just want to get the flight and go home!

So yah, with limited chinese and trying to look polite and cool, manage to smoothen the process. So yah….at the end…everything was settled. I was thinking whether i should change my departure back to directly to Sg (cause initially the plan is go down at Taipei and went around the city for 10 hours) Now i’m very tired both physically and emotionally that i wanted just to go home asap and sleep.

At the end, it’s a nice journey back. I ate the Italian food that i didn’t finished earlier in Vancouver. Then i didn’t change my transit in Taipei, so was surprised for the 1/2 day free tour. Enjoyed Taipei so much, most of all is the Chiang Kai Sek memorial hall. Have been long time wanted to see what kind of man he is. A man that honored, and devoted Christian. A general that asked his soldiers to meditate the Bible and he himself woke up early morning just to read Bible. He accepted YFC (Youth For Christ) donation of Gospel of John and transformed Taiwan. There i really enjoyed…the building so big, and saw his photos – a courageous and bold general. The copy of Bible and many more. God has fulfilled my heart’s desire.

End of my UCANTA 2005 trip 

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