The last few days have been encouraging for me.
For despite the difficult situation and circumstances around, finally i could regain what seemingly my lost in first place. That’s my initial simple childlike faith and fervent zealous straight-forward passion and love for Jesus. 
There are many of my former self which eroded simply by the many hardships came along lately. And took several days to resolve back to the simple passionate young man i’m used to be.
And began to thank God for all the precious gifts around the dark situation. For wonderful auntie who’s looking after mum. For wonderful friends who help in any ways they can for the recovery of mum. And for the many prayers answered that each day and especially yesterday there’s great progress to mum’s recovery. For finally she could move her thumb… Praise God.
To the simple questioned asked on me the nite before…”Do you believe God can heal your mum?” With my whole heart, Yes, i do believe that. And more than all these things, i was reminded of the beauty and necessity of ‘process’. That through all the steps and progress and times and days….God is forming in me a new attitude and awareness of His work, power, character. And that’s wonderful. He’s no longer God whom i know with my limited knowledge few months ago…but the one who increasingly opening my horizon and understanding of Himself. Giving me surprises and yet gently caring me through the process.
As what Paul echoes in one his letters, the more i’m glad in weaknesses, for when i’m weak, then i’m strong. Surely His power is made perfect in weaknesses. And His grace is sufficient.
Often we want a quick answer and instant relief. However, it’s been months for those things. And things remain dark and gloomy if not uncertain. However, with new assurance and understanding of who He is, and His whole character and purpose…..I’m strengthened to face the unknown future. To him who holds tomorrow, we can place our hands. He is both trustworthy, and able.