Discipline (1)

Posted on December 16, 2004 by clay

Really glad to find out from Hebrews,
that discipline doesn’t bring joy in the beginning, but sorrow
instead it will be quite funny to find a pleasant discipline…
but yah, i really need to be disciplined
so till end this year … the hard work …
persevere and work hard

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Boldness

Posted on December 10, 2004 by clay

Thank God for another Christian colleague …
It’s really amazing …
God converted him in his first year in NTU through somebody shared 4 Spiritual Law …
I m reminded to be bold …
To share …
To encourage …
To open my mouth …
Help me Lord

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Another wedding invitation…

Posted on December 9, 2004 by clay
Huhuhu …
Soon another wedding invitation will come…
So 5 wedding invitations this year …
3 last year …
3 that quite confirmed for next year …
Quite overwhelmed, when 2 couples are actually my friends …
Time is so fast …
was tempted to pray an impatient prayer….
but yah, last nite learnt to trust God in this matter
abt who, when, and how
it’ll be a unique story
Not another person’s story, but will hear my own story
and surely the great Aslan gives each and everyone their best

 

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God provides me with work

Posted on December 6, 2004 by clay

Started work already
There’re just too many things to give thanks…hehehehe…
Tell this to this person, and that to that person, and another to another person … too many things …

simply so happy
all that i asked, the Lord gave
there’re too many things now …
will write again when i’ve more time
and want to thank everyone that have prayed for me …
simply there’re many many ppl have been praying
and it’s so marvelous to be a prayer item

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What a mother – self identity

Posted on November 30, 2004 by clay

Told my mum abt my new job last week,
she didn’t ask much,
nor did she know the goodness of this company,
yet she’s thankful
for the fact that i got a job
and i was happy abt it

self-identity,
it doesn’t come from outside
it’s not abt what do you do
nor it’s abt what you become
but it’s abt who you are
that you can walk with dignity
regardless what others say and look at you

to me, my identity is with Christ
i found myself a sinner
saved by grace alone

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I consider my life worth nothing

Posted on November 27, 2004 by clay

It’s the words from Apostle Paul…

Attended thanksgiving dinner for 1 year labor in children church,
Was assigned to teach P5 and P6 next year …
And probably few sermons also …

At first i thought it’s going to be another year of service
Another year of learning
And another year of growing

Never expect to get something more
Something beyond what i can do
Beyond what i think i’m capable of

Till a thought came after me,
This few lines from a song “Servant of the Gospel”
That says : “refuge in His mercy,
marvel at His love”

Since when that a ministry is ever be easy
since when that i’m expert in it
since when that i know how to
since whan that i say i can do it?

For in weakness that God’s power is made perfect
in my weaknesses that God is glorified most
if i know all, there’s no need of God
if i can do all, no room for God works

it’s not time to teach me how to
it’s not time to train me to be an expert
it’s not time for developing my skills

but it’s time for me,
to be humble
to 100% dependable
and trust Him
to see Him works
to be faithful in my prayers
to persevere in tough times
and trust Him still

it’s been a long walk
yet it’s still early in the morning
there’re more to go
so don’t be small hearted

the talk with Joel few days ago
and meditation on Paul’s letter
it becomes making more sense to me

i consider my life worth nothing,
if only i may finish the race
and complete the task
the Lord Jesus has given me

the task of testifying
to the gospel
of God’s grace

that i consider all rubish
for the sake of knowing Christ
to be found in Him
having righteousness not on my own
O, that i may know Him
and the power of His resurecction,
sharing in His suffering
becoming like Him in His death
and somehow to attain
to the resurecction of the dead

when life worths nothing
except God and His kingdom,
that’s the most blessed life
because He is

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A glad afternoon

Posted on November 22, 2004 by clay
Thank you Lord for a call from Gemplus
It’s so funny. Hahahaha….it’s probably true that God has a sense of humor too.
I was expecting a positive call from Gemplus,
yet really there’s a call, not positive, not negative,
a different boss, and probably a better one and also prospect i pray
If it’s really so, it’s just so funny…
An extraordinary God and ways of dealing with me in this period of time

Also thank God that my eye is fine, only a little scratch. Haven’t played badminton for long time, yesterday played and my string was broken, and somebody hit my eye with the shuttle cock..

Focus focus…end of year is coming..

 

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Birthday revisited

Posted on November 19, 2004 by clay

Hehehe, bcs rik requested, i wrote it here,
It’s good, somehow i write better here than on paper
It’s not a detail account however,
A brief and general one,
A one glance of my 25th birthday

First of all, i thank God for who He is
Because of He is who He is, that i am what i am today
Looking back, this year was the most difficult year in my personal life
I dealt with what living in a real world means
I tasted man’s wickedness and plots
And the Lord delivered me from that all

 

Currently looking for job, and through this experience i learnt at least 2 things.
1) God knows best what’s best. In my understanding, the fastest and soonest i get a job, the better it would be. However, it’s not the best. Through this waiting period, God used to clear out my life. Yes, He really cleared it out. Without such period of time where i’m being free and open, such cleaning process can’t take place.
2) I thought of issues which otherwise i will have no time to think it through. Ministries is one thing. It’s time to sharpen me, to mold me, and to form me for the next phase.

For this, i thank you every friends of mine, near and far. They provided help, support, and things which otherwise i won’t find and have in this world. As iron sharpens iron, so man sharpens one another (Proverbs).

So first thing first, i prayed for job. I trusted in Thee, and I shall not be put in shame. My deliverance will come from the Lord. Those are words from Psalms…
Too many encouragements in this area that i’ve been receiving that it’s impossible to write them here…

Second, i prayed for my PR status… i mean personal relationship with that, not permanent residence …:D
It’s the most strange year as well. May i found favor from the Lord.

Third, i prayed for my ministries for next year. Haven’t fully decided, but currently i know that i would very much going to Children Church / Sunday School ministry again and the Cancer Support Ministry. Hmmm…i can’t elaborate them here, also other things…. It’s too overwhelming. But yah….the dormant period had helped me to see things clearer and better. Hopefully i will stay focus for the whole year.

 

And last remark, this 25 years marks the 1st phase of my life. The 2nd phase is built on this foundation. May the Lord bring into abundance the 2nd phase of my life. I don’t know what i may become when i turn 50, but i would like to see God’s hands working in and through me. Whatever, wherever, whoever, i will remain His clay.

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Updates …:|

Posted on November 17, 2004 by clay

thank you Lord for another interview tomorrow
when i’m depressed of “short future”
again You cheered me up

also yesterday ef called me, then i had chat with ci rosi…
thank You Lord for using her to cheer me,
and remember that You are in control,
will always give what is best
she’s so cute and funny ….
really glad to talk with her

and also glad to know that what i heard from ci ester is not 100% correct. In fact ef will keep it a secret… i’m safe

i thank God that now i’ve more people to pray for me in this matter.
it’s really a long talk yesterday. Impressed with his patient and leadership. Truly humble, objective, and wise. No big surprise ci ester said he’s a good guy

Indeed the past 2 days was soothing. Especially the phone talk with vi after the camp. Really glad to be able to speak with her in a calm and friendly tone

And shortly, tomorrow hopefully i will write on my camp experience and b’day … ^_^
still owe somebody on that,
pls be patient friends

 

next week would be an exciting week
will meet up with Kah Junn and few MEET teams … waow …
it’s also something big happened,
was thinking and praying abt them, and suddenly mayhsin contacted me, next week going to see them ….
where God is leading?

my sis friend is also here,
and i haven’t meet up with him
and another friend is coming end this month,
haven’t found out place for her

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Swinging mood

Posted on November 10, 2004 by clay

Hehehe, these days the weather are really unpredictable
Sunny on one day, rainy on the following day
similarly my mood…
up, down, up, down, …
perhaps my mind also, left, right, left, right, …
swang between two state of hope and hopelesness
maybe it’s me that control the weather ? hehehehe ….

anyway, when my spirit is high … go forth
exercise helps to maintain my energy level high
looking at little children also boosts my spirit
Remember Psalm 77 when i’m down

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