Following God

The last few days have been very hard. My eldest told me, this is the hardest anniversary for you. I smiled, she chose her words correctly. It is the hardest day, but it’s not the worst day. The worst day is when God is not in the picture.

I told my girl, that it is okay. Because when we are weak, then we are strong, because God’s power will make us strong (2 Cor 12:9-10).

Having said those things, doesn’t mean I’m immune to temptations or self efforts. I worry and thinking of for ways out. I must do something, otherwise things will not get done. God helps those who work.

And in those times, God’s Spirit nods me to trust Him. I was restraint many times. I was about to send out an email asking for help, and the Spirit prompted me to pray. I was about to send out a text message, and again the Spirit prompted me to pray. I was thinking of plans, and the Spirit asked me to stop.

What do I get at the end? I got all those things done, but with a different attitude and approach. I didn’t march out and win the deal. I went out following God’s leading and went back humbled how He worked through prayers, surrendering the outcome and trusting Him.

I am scared, scared to believe what God could and might do through a dependance life. Is there anything glorious or for me to boast? There’s nothing to boast on my part. May all glory goes to Him.