A silly father

Last night I tried to put our two girls to sleep together again. It ended up the younger disturbed the older one with her vomitting.

It was probably one of the worst night that my girl has less than 10 hours sleep. Everyday I try to make sure she achieve 12 hours of sleep. Usually she hit 11, and for rare occasions she only has 10.5 hours. But it was never less than 10 hours. And she’s still quite alert.

In tiredness and frustrations, I said to her,”I don’t know what will happen tomorrow.” With that statement was all my fear that she didn’t rest enough, and she might get sick, and tomorrow we would handle a grumpy child. I felt lost and frustrated.

Then in tiredness, I realized how foolish I was. Of course I’m not in control of tomorrow. And i’m no different with many others who afraid about the future of their children when their children are (e.g. not doing well in school, not eating well, etc). My case is i’m afraid of my children future if they’re not sleeping well the night before.

I felt foolish when I’m worshiping an almighty God, who holds the future. He could do anything, knows everything, and hears all our prayers. I should trust Him more and rest, knowing that He cares and I’ve trust my children to Him. It is foolish to try to take control for something I’m not in control

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